A new day

   The whole family had a wonderful time on our trip. Camping in cabins is truly the best kind of camping! It has the best of both worlds with air conditioning inside and wild horses right outside our door. Fisher loved to look at all the animals that he could spot. I saw him trying to follow a bunny as it hopped across the lawn. He also LOVED the water, he was splashing and kicking around with a smile on his face. After a little while he was all tuckered out and fell asleep in the folding chair.
   We pushed the vacation to the limit leaving at 10 at night for a two and a half hour drive. Mommy and daddy were wiped out but Fisher slept the whole drive home. The next day it was hard to adjust to being all alone durning the day again and not having help all the time. It is nice to be home.
  Well today is Thursday and we can not wait to sit here and do nothing this weekend, maybe some movies or a trip outside to the pool. I love the days when it is just me and my two boys. They melt my heart. I am feeling pretty blessed lately, realizing that there are not many people that have the resources to stay at home with thier litte ones.
   However, I have decided that I need to do something more with my life while I stay home with little man. I am pretty sure that I am going to go to school online for medical billing. It is a pretty exciting thought. I am also going to loose a ton of weight. We have been on a low calorie diet for the past few days and today I am going to kick it up a few notches. Cutting even more calories and begining exercise is the first part of my plan. The second is to focus more on myself and my family and less on other people and media. I am also going to put effort into learning things like driving. It has always scared me. During all the other thing I'm also going to go to the doctor for stress and anxiety. Also, I have to learn to put myself first sometimes. Taking a long bath while Fisher sleeps or taking a few extra minutes to get ready in the morning so I have confidence walking out the door.

So in conclusion to this rambling, this is the day of me. Today is a new beging to a better attitude, body and mind. I am so ready.

Time for a nap

   Well its here! Finally a few days to relax, have help with Fisher and hopefully get a tan. I NEED THIS! Yesterday was a whirlwind of a day only topped by the day before that. Thursday went fin for the most part until the night. Let me tell you, it was a hellish night full of baby screams and cries for a solid 2 hours. He did not want to sleep for anything, no matter how tired and crank he was. Justin hopeless rocked and sang to the boy until he could no longer take the noise. Fisher would not even take a bottle until he was cradled to his satisfaction.
   The next morning (Friday) was as normal as possible. We left at one in the afternoon to go to the doctor only to hear how my insurance expired. I was absolutely livid, seeing as I need insurance and that is the one and only reason we are not married. I cried. Come to find out some people just are not smart because I do have insurance. So we move on with the day and as I sit in the back seat with the baby he begins to fuss. This continues on and off for the next several hours while we drive back and forth from one town to another spending over $100 on anything and everything for me and Fisher to go on the trip with. Finally we got home and went to bed around midnight.
   I guess that brings us to today, it is about 8 am here and baby boy is on my lap napping. He needs it because he woke at  this morning. Guess who  was up with him ? Momma! I am tired but I have got alot done. Dishes, swept, clean living room, two load laundry, made snacks for trip, organized groceries from last night, put up Fishers clothes we bought, and pack all of his stuff. Feed, play with and change the baby then put him back to sleep.

Productive huh?

Ready for the weekend

  Ever since we put our self on a strict budget we have had TONS of spending money. We were able to go out every weekend to enjoy ourselves.Well after Justins' family came and went we shortly realized that we had went way over budget spending all of our money for the week. So we sit in the house, we sit after Justin gets home and all through the night. I am bored and lonely, we have no adult interaction other than each other. Now it seems that even the baby is going stir crazy.

   So there is now a count down until Friday (payday) so we can buy a few things and go on a little vacation. Its only to a cabin on the lake two hours away but it might just be fun. I am so excited to take Fisher swimming and romp around the lake for the weekend. We even had a "trial" on Memorial day to see how he reacted. Lots of sunblock, a few apple juice bottles and a dip in the lake later, the boy was tuckered out. We went home shortly later.
 I was a proud proud momma!

   Since the day out went well, we are very ready to go on this little outing. It has been a long week stuffed in the house with the baby's new voice which has turned into the screechy shrieking teenager fase.
Oh on another note, Our Fridge went out. Leaving a soppy mess of spoiled food and a VERY sour smell. Yuck, it was a complete mess that I couldn't touch, therefore recruiting the man of the house to do it. He was a trooper though, only complaing a couple of times. Until it gets fixed we are going back in time and living out of my dorm room refrigerator that only holds about 1/3 of our grocery load. Ugh ! So we went sopping yesterday only buying that amount that would fit in the tiny space. I still spent over $100

Gran is on her way

   In this wonderful world of firsts that I seem to be living in lately, I add another today. Justins' grandmother or Gran as they call her is on her way here. The purpose is to meet me and Fisher for the first time and see Justin again after a year away. I am not as scared as I was when I had the pleasure of meeting his parents and I am excited that they are coming too. We have been frantically preparing for this visit for a few days. After the new dogs have been here a few weeks they have shed a lot of hair so I rented a carpet cleaner and did the whole house. Fisher did not like the noise, he screamed every time the machine was turned on Needless to say, I had to be real sneaky about things. The floors dried quicker than I expected but with all the traffic that we have I am sure the the white carpet wont last long. The Kitchen was next on my list; I finished that this morning after an amazing breakfast.
   The house is starting to look and smell pretty nice after all the vacuuming, mopping,sweeping, wiping, organizing and spraying Justin is outside weed eating the lawn while me and baby take a break. He is kicking away making tons of noises.When we get up there is alot more work to do but we have  a few hours to finish. I cannot wait to show how the boy has grown in the last month, He can sit up easily and sucks his thumb! I wil share pictures of every one with Fisher tonight after our guests go home but for now its back to work for me.

sunshine and rainbows

Thought I would drop in while I have a second. Huge wave of a optimism around the house today, and engergy. Oh how I have missed this feeling. Fisher slept through the night and the nightmares I have been fighting didn't show up. We even slept in!!!! Daddy is getting off in just a few minutes, we can not wait to get out of this house for awhile. It will be nice to come home too, the house is clean, laundry done, dishes washed and about to cook lunch. Baby boy has been so good today too. Okay to sum up.. good day, its getting better.

My baby doesn't sleep and now he plays with guns

   The past week or so has been hard on the family in the sleep department. Well actually, hard on me. There has been serval nights when I break down crying in the middle of the night when Fisher wakes up. Since birth he has been a pretty good baby, he sleeps well but for awhile it was only on me. Gradually he moved to his bed and slept more and more through the night. It wasn't long before nights were a wonderful event full of 'me' time and sleep. Even though i am bragging a little, this didn't last long. Recently baby boy is waking up every three hours fussing about and honestly making our life pretty hard. This along with the desire to stay awake all day leads to a very tired momma. I researched it alot, by researching I mean I googled it. Anyway, there is aparently a name for his sleeplessness called 4 month sleep regression. AS with everything else my boy is a early bloomer. He is 3 months, 3 weeks and one day old!
   I told you that to tell you this. If anyone else  has something to say about how I am a bad mother or that you don't think the store we are in will approve of the picture I am taking YOU better watch out. I will tell you that your 2 year old is a nightmare of a child and she should stop knocking over displays. I will find a manager when you yell in my face . Oh I WILL file a police report when you have the nerve to call the number on the side of my truck and file a false complaint to who you think is my employer. You were talkinging to my dad by the way. I am an overtired over work and cranky momma! I will stand up for myself and my baby. I hope you get whats coming to you.

   Let me explain myself and the little temper tantrum I just through. We were in bass pro shop, near the shooting games. I though it would be cute to take a picture with the guns on the game (it was). Mid picture, this lady approuches me and begins to nag about how unsafe the whole thing was. How guns kill people and we should really think about lettin our little one touch them. It proceeded into a agrument about how we should (and might) be reported to DHS. After all of this, i call my dad to tell him about the experience. Just so happens he recieved a complaint on our truck saying that the driver looked and acted drunk. I am so glad to be home, this is why I dislike being around alot of people! After a night like that I am fighting off a bad attitude and headache.

What the hell?

  First, and the best thing, my little man rolled from his back to his tummy and back again. He then proceeded to find his voice. I am so proud! Fisher is growing fast right before our eyes. Everyday he makes new discoveries, his tounge, his voice and of course the ability to roll back and forth. My first reponse to this new skill was to scream, clap and then call my mother to tell her how amazingly smart her only grandson is. Her reaction? To promptly tell me how awful it is going to be when he starts crawling, wich is apparently pretty soon. What the hell mom? Shouldn't you just be happy? Since then, Fisher has also began to grab toys and even shake them around. Occasionally I will catch him sucking on his thumb. I know the thumb thing is not the most impressive but I definatly think its the cutest. Maybe it is because we saw him sucking his thumb on Christmas in a ultrasound. It has always stuck with me.

  In the past week I think that I am learning as much as baby boy is. I am getting much better at doing laundry. I mean really doing laundry.... washing, drying, folding and hanging. I CAN DO IT ALL! Also, I am getting better at the whole dishes thing. I absolutly hate dishes, even with a dishwasher I can't stand the whole process. When I was a kid I always tried to con my mother into doing the dishes for me. It always worked because I would clean the bathroom for her. It was always a fair trade but I got the better end of the deal in my eyes. In school I lived off of paper plates and the microwave dinners. I also sent my clothes to the cleaners to be done. I was spoiled to say the least. Even though this stopped when I got pregnant, I was still spoiled. Well, those days seem to be a lifetime away. Now I am here, still spoiled but in a different way, our own house a beautiful baby boy, a wonderful man I can count on for everything. So I'm happy.

   Since it took over an hour to type what is 20 minutes worth of  thoughts I should deal with my baby now. He is grunting in the middle of tummy time meaning only one thing......